The Wrong

Today I needed you so badly
and I tried to reach you
though I was not supposed to.

I got no answer as usual
and I wasn't even allowed to question it
for asking for love apparently drift us apart.

It's been so hard  to love less
in order to be with you.
I'ts been hard to hear no's
when all I need is a yes.

Am I really being selfish?
Have I really gotten this all messed up...

To be afraid all the time of your disappearance
if I say the wrong words...
if I do the wrong things...

And I don't even have the courage
to ask if you've read it.
And I don't even have the courage
to imagine you'd be gone.

Then what am I doing here?