Plans

Today something strange occurred to me...
some strange desire to change it all;
to resent past decisions as if they were
nothing compared to this right now.

And I thought about calling you up
or letting you know
that I've been thinking about you
that I want you here.


To keep to plans once we shelved
as they aimed at something
I cannot let go of...
Will I fall through?


So now I anxiously and silently wait
for it.
Will I procure it; or
Will I go to waste?